Ramblings Of Me

Proton Cons People!

2011-06-19T12:12:00.004+08:00

It has been 1 1/2 years since I have updated my blog. I have decided to break the silence today because I am dead bored at work. Yes! Yes! I have finally finished studying and I don't intend to continue at this moment especially not in UNITEN. 7 years is way too long to be there! Its been a good one year so far at work. Learning a lot and making a new circle of friends.

So being a fresh grad, I had not much of choice but to choose our local car manufacturer. I am not complaining about my car as it has served me well the past 2 years...but I don't think I would ever want to get a proton again because they have such poor service. The warranty ended recently and decided to take it to a "kedai bawah pokok" which is how my collegues address it as. When I got there, it was to my horror that the transmission oil which was changed during my last service had a high carbon build-up. The mechanic asked me whether I was sure it was changed and me being the blur me...i said of course la last service tukar. Then he asked me whether i saw them changing it...and i was like...err....saya letak kereta kat service centre lepas habis service, pergi ambil balik. Then he went on saying, do you know at some proton service centre, the bill you for the oil but they don't change it. I was shocked!! Well, I guess at any service centre, be it proton or "kedai bawah pokok"..the moment they see a gal walking into the shop...they will con us into changing everything.

So the moral of the story is
1) not to buy a proton

2) try not to be blur when going to a mechanic shop :)

Thank God!

2009-12-08T11:21:00.002+08:00

One semester has been completed and I have just started my new semester. Looking back, I really thank God for the results He gave me. After completing my studies, everything fell into place perfectly. Although I had different plans but somehow He brought me back in uni and i know He knows whats best.

Being in uni again, made me re-think about a lot of things. Why am I here again? What should I do differently this time? I feel OLD to be back! ahaha. But above all this I began to realize slowly that there is a purpose I'm back. My perception on certain things have been changed for the better and being a more positive person is slowly but surely sinking in.

Without me realizing, I have actually been sharing with quite a number of people. Getting to know people that I would have never got to know if I had left. And I found myself relating to people in a different way. Nevertheless it still makes me feel old!Haha :) It has not only made me widen my group of friends but it has made me realize that its not just us in this place, 'living happily in a bubble'-disassociating the rest.

Listening to them, made me realize that God puts us through troubles for a purpose. Coz if I didn't go through it, I definitely could not relate to them. We may not see it now but sooner or later we will realize it. I miss my group of friends-my comfort zone,my 'bubble' but we are all moving on and have different lives to live. But meeting them back is always good and it just feels like before,no awkwardness,no silence-just full of laughter and good thoughts and kutuk-ings. Everything just clicks and it feels like nothing ever changed.

All in all, when things get tough and when there are times you feel that there is no purpose to be here...and then u speak to a person by coincidence and somehow u made the person feel better...that itself is a purpose of you being placed there...:)

Its been....

2009-11-03T23:38:00.005+08:00

Three months since you left this world to be in a better place. I can't believe how fast time flew and it was just when I reminded you what flowers I wanted for convo and before I knew it you were gone...Standing there today,brought back lots of memories. Ones that will be cherished. Life is so fragile and we never know when our time is up.. We who are left to complete our race have to complete it at our best. I'm sure that's what Gary did. There is a loss that we all feel,the passing of our dear friend has changed us all in some way. God gives and God takes in His perfect timing.

This got me thinking about how I usually take things for granted and 'expecting' things to fall in place. We have to be thankful for all the things that He has provided and thankful for all His blessings towards us. Waking up everyday itself is a blessing!

There will be moments where we can't hold our tears back and yet deep down we rejoice knowing that you are in a better place. Its something hard to accept, the parting so soon but knowing that we will all meet again someday comforts us. There will be ups and downs, good days and bad days but through it all we know we serve an AWESOME God.

We lost a dear friend,we miss the time hanging out with him,cheering for he and his football team and getting bullied by him but above all he left this world with a legacy because he lived his life for Jesus. Rest in peace my dear friend...

Ups n Downs...

2009-09-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

Thinking that I have completed my uni life and got my scroll I would be working somewhere and wouldn't be able to be in uni so often...BUT guess what...somehow I ended up continuing my studies at my beloved university. Something that I never expected to do when I was in degree. It was all about completing it and work....but I guess,above all our plans down here...HE knows whats best for us.
Doing masters is not the same like how it was in degree, I suppose it is because there are many familiar faces and friends who have been with us since foundation. Its a new step altogether and it just feels different. One semester is already coming to an end, I can't believe how fast time flies. And its back to preparing for finals.....oh no.....
I'm not only studying but I'm teaching tuition and I actually enjoy what I'm doing. Its fun to teach and I enjoy the time I have with my students :)...(one group actually found out my blog link~haha..). They are super hyper and they always never fail to make me laugh. There are times when it was so difficult to get through the day but when I'm with them...teaching...and listening to their school stories, it somehow makes me feel better.
Its been a hectic 6months I must say. The moment I completed my final exams for my degree, I started teaching. At first it was just one student....then the number just grew..and grew...and grew...Its a good experience I must say and I like what I do... :)

Relieved??

2009-02-27T00:01:00.002+08:00

Its finally over. A much awaited day? I'm not sure about that. But I did want to feel what is it like to be the audience. No tension, no stress......just chilll.....ahaha. Its a good feeling. Even though, I think I'm going to feel sad when I leave but there is like a big sense of relieve. I'm thankful for the people in the current committee and I'm happy and proud to see them take over with a fresh energy and all fired up for Him! **emo moment**

While I type this, I'm telling this particular someone how the semester has passed so fast. Its when were are enjoying is when we don't realize how time passes us by. It has indeed been an exciting semester for me thus far. I still have a few more weeks before it officially ends. Oh noooo....!!! What's next? Work?? Hoping someone would hire me soon....yada yada yada. I bet you hear the same thing from all the final sem students.

Now I'm just focusing on ending my uni life on a high note. And of course finishing my thesis on time...haha...which is at the moment moving sellllloooowwwwwlllllyyyy.......Ok my bed is calling me. Got to go....ciao!!

Grad Nite

2009-02-07T10:58:00.000+08:00

Its 3.05am and I can't sleep. Just had a COLLLLLDDDD shower after a WONDERFUL nite. It of course started with a rush because I had an exam to go for right before the dinner. The excitement for the dinner was kinda distracted. Anyway, I rushed and did my exam, all because of Grad nite...hahaa...Came back home and showered as fast as I could and waited while mum(yes! my mum came all the way from Kuantan) tied the saree for me *i really should learn how to tie it myself*.

I waited for my date at the Murni guardhouse,Yea rules are rules...guys can't come in, so had to wait there. But the moment I stepped into the car, he suprised me with flowers...I was like...awwwww.....so sweet...pink roses to be specific.He just knew what would make me melt...Then of course we convoyed to the 5/6 star hotel-Palace of the Golden Horses(and some ppl got lost on the way :P). Reached there and went round and round looking for parking...finally got one spot at sum weird leaking area.

When I stepped into the hall, I was amazed. Everyone was so dressed up, and I couldn't recognize some people with all the make up on. I think this is one of those nites where the uni students especially the gals go all out to look their best. The whole nite was fun, I think we were syok sendiri-ing a lot. But well, we are supposed to have fun...and we DID!

After the event, we adjourned to the famous MCD bangi (so says some ppl who practically live there! :P). We laughed and laughed and laughed because we had an entertainer with us. I think Patty had never laughed that much before. All in all it was a nite to remember....coz it was a fun event with fun people...and a sweet date ;)

Here are some pictures from my phone....im guessing more would be posted on facebook like really soon...

Sao Paolo

2009-01-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

The striking color...ORANGE...the color for my favourite teams' jersey this year. Despite of not getting through to the finals, I think they played an awesome game. To me...they are still the best!! (awww....gary should pay me for this)...hahhaaha. Anyway, its so much fun cheering for them especially when we are in a big group. I think the best time was when 'someone' made the banner for them :). I was so stressed during the match that I could feel the heat from my own face...yea..i know scary...but Joshua found it funny. I think its more stressful than having to sit for final exams! I'll be back next year...hopefully...just to watch them...and scream for them! Wohooooo!! Sao Paolo!!!! No 8(is the Man)!!! No 87(runs super fast)!! No 13(dun like to run)!! milin(cekap goal keeper)!!!! weeee......No 9(awesome footwork)!! No 11 n No 1(cun hairstyles)!!No 10(is a pro) hahaha...so you see, this is what us supporters talk about u :)

Got thru Quarter finals !!

2009-01-07T15:11:00.002+08:00

3-0 that's the final score for today's match, Sao Paolo against...err...the blue team...dunno who!! haha..Anyway the point is they won!! Weee... :). It was a pretty wet match..it was fun to see the players fall here and there coz of the puddles of water.(so mean rite?). I guess besides listening to the opponent team supporters 'kutuk', all we could do is observe these funny things happening on the field. We(the supporters of Sao Paolo) were pretty quiet from the beginning coz there were so few of us. I began to scream when the match was over. Yea I know, chicken...but well being there and supporting is the most important role of the supporter...not merely by screaming but by the presence...ahahha...Okok...talking to much about the supporters. I wish Sao Paolo all the best for the next game.....Go gary! Go!!!!!! :)

Finale Of Christmas Nite 08'

2009-01-07T00:18:00.002+08:00

We finally had our post mortem for "2000 Years Ago...". I can't believe that I have been part of 5 Christmas Nites. I feel old!! Everyone presented their reports, correction most of us presented our reports...:P. It was a good to look back and run through what happened during preparation and also on the day itself. Reminded each other what we should do and should not do the next year..hopefully it will be helpful for the next committee. The moment of joy and the Christmassy feeling came back for just a bit. But now back to reality..It has finally ended. Which also means, I am a step closer to complete my uni life. I thought I would be happy but being part of Techflow is gonna make me not so happy when its time to leave.(No wander some ppl just never leave :P). Anyway, I'm looking forward to come back next year as an alumni... :)

A Nite to remember.....

2009-01-05T22:28:00.006+08:00

22nd December 2008-Monday,Dewan Seri Sarjana(MPH),was a nite to remember. Techflow's 6th Christmas Musical Play. Preparations began from the first semester and this year's play came with the title "2000 Years Ago...". I was so confident that I would be acting in the play,but I thought wrong.

A much awaited day finally arrived, as most of us were busy doing last minute things. It always seems that there is something to do at the very last moment. Besides, I think we work best under pressure which leads to other people having stress for us delaying things :). The event started a lil late due to unforseen circumstances. Everyone was excitedly waiting to watch the play. There were lots of cheers during the play & some came from the front row itself :P...haha.

To end the whole event was the performance by the Stepping Stones kids. It really touched my heart to see them. I just Thank God that everything went on smoothly. It was simply AWESOME! I think I don't have to say much...I guess those who attended can understand what I mean. Thank you everyone for all your support & contribution in making this Christmas Nite a success!!

Here are some pictures which i managed to curi from aggy.....yes yes...posing pictures...what we do best :) There are more pictures on facebook!

Suprise Suprise!!

2009-01-05T22:09:00.003+08:00

30th December 2008,1-ish am, after a good BBQ at my beloved Techflow advisor's home,I was suprised by my good friend who finds it really difficult to keep a secret but she managed to this time! Haha! Yes, I got my Christmas present from my beloved friend Agnes and my Mummy!! Wondering what it is?? Its a phoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Yeay!! Hehe...best christmas gift ever...I was so suprised that I was speechless and all I could say was.."Awwwww.....awwww....awwww...." You wanna know how many times I said it? You can contact Adeline.

Anyway, the phone on the left, which has served me well was my old pink motorola phone..I know many people would be cursing the phone,but its the longest phone I have ever used and lately it has been sick..**drum roll**And presenting the phone on the right is my new PINK sony ericsson phone...yes yes another pink phone...hehehe...but I LIKE :).

Still getting used to the new phone, so my sms-ing is se-low(bear with me k?). And on Saturday I realized that I must brush up my skills of sms-ing with this phone while driving! haha..i could do it without looking at the phone with my motorola but I can't with this one anymore...I guess its just a matter of time. Anyway, the problem of calls not being able to come through or calls getting cut half way is finally SOLVED!!

At the plant

2008-11-19T20:04:00.002+08:00

I went back to the plant yesterday, to get some work done for my final year project. The main entrance to the plant has changed. The guards were more friendly and they actually let me drive in so I didn't have to take the 20 minute walk. As you can see, I have got more lazy over the holidays which is ending soon.
As I was getting down from the car, I heard someone calling my name real loud from the canteen. I was suprised to be noticed that fast, maybe because I wore red. Haha...anyway it was Uncle X...he is the oldest at the office so we call him that. I walked in to the office and everyone was in a good mood. They just got back from their team building which was in Kuching(the land of Janice)...hehe :P. If only my internship was during this time, i would have managed to join them. They were updating me about their trip. It was fun to be back. There is a new german intern but unfortunately can't check the intern out coz this time its a girl!! The batch of german interns who were with me are all gone...sob sob....
Then of course I started with my analysis for my fyp. My boss(my ex-boss i mean) really gave me a lot of information and I was amazed with the amount of info he knew off hand. I mean, in his position he does not have to know all this but he takes the initiative to learn about it. And he is also a very hands on person. He knows a lot of technical details about the car. After going through the tests, we went for a drink. There he enlightened me about more things. I was really in awe. If I was going to be working in a car manufacturing company, I would want to be like him. He really knows his stuff.
He started working in a small company which manufactures parts for air-conditioning systems then he worked really hard and now he is with Daimler. He went to Germany for training and now he is the manager of Commercial Vehicles. Not forgetting he just received an award from the Sultan. He is one good example of a person who worked hard to get where he is at the moment. And being a well read person, he has been helping me a lot in my project. I'm really thankful to have him to help me thus far.
Talking to him has made me realize that the working world is not that far away from me. I have to start thinking about where I'm going to start my career and etc....I guess above all this worry, God knows whats best for me. I just pray that I get into something I like to do and I will be somewhere not so far from my psyco friends. I can't believe that this 1st of December I will be starting my final semester in Uni. I hope its gonna be the best :). I can't wait to be back!

Holidays!

2008-11-14T20:18:00.002+08:00

I think I have never looked forward to getting back home this much before. Since I looked so much to going back fast, thanx to someone I could fly home :). And indeed it was fast, I think I reached so fast even Nina didn't get back to bed yet after sending me! It has been 5days since I have been back and lets just say nothing productive has been done except to make an appointment with my ex-boss. Haha...so basically I have been bumming around and probably bugging my parents and also my doggy.

I got the another 9days left before I get back to uni and I better make the best out of it. I'm yet to go to the beach. It has been raining every other day so can't lepak there. And the saddest thing is after my intern friends left, Kuantan seems to be pretty quiet for me. Mum says I should find something to do to keep myself from becoming to lazy if not it would be difficult for me when I get back to uni BUT i'm enjoying being lazy at the moment. Its the only time I can be lazy..during the holidays!! Haha.

Anyway, I have to go make a birthday card for my mum's boss. Hope it turns out well. Coz i'm not all that good in art. Hopefully will have pictures to show once I'm done with it. Till then!

I got a table finally!

2008-09-18T13:19:00.007+08:00

I know i know...its towards the end of the semester but i finally was able to purchase a study table. Thank you so much(you know who you are) for helping me get it for me. Now at least my back won't ache when i study. Signs of old age lar..cannot bend too much..:). Oh oh..and thank you phoebe for helping me fix it. Just hope it doesn't fall eh??

Anyway..Its a pretty white table, with pretty white legs....hehe..

Wed..thurs..fri..sat...

2008-09-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

Last Wednesday, was emo Day for me. I don't know what got into me but I was kinda frustrated with everything around me especially during classes. Couldn't understand what the lecturers were teaching(ya...nothing new rite??) BUT it just really really really got to me this time. I mean we are paying soooooo much and we end up not understanding what is being taught. It is really irritating when they just read off the slides or the notes. We can do that too! Anyway, the person who listens to all this during class is phoebs...sorry that u have to hear my nyo-nyoings.

Thursday's bro and sis nite in Techflow was good. It started off in a heated conversation...sacarsm and "jokes" which are not so funny anymore. But like tim said 'we were making progress'. We finally came to a mutual understanding. I guess we are different and unique in our own ways. There is just no point in arguing who is better or worst coz we can just go on arguing. I could conclude it ended like how a positive therapy session would end. Everyone was happy. And to appreciate the sisters, our beloved brothers gave us bookmarks which they made. Thank you Nantha and Aaron!! I was lucky enough to get two bookmarks.

Friday morning started off in a rush coz I woke up late for class and was a little late for quiz. But it was okay la...we still managed to sit for it. After our short visit to Ilsas to see a real sized turbine, we went for lunch. Mum paksa-ed me to be vegetarian coz it was Onam. Miss those days when we used to have a variety of vege dishes for onam lunch and not forgetting the awesome payasam...yum yum. Nevertheless it was a fun lunch with my besties. Oh ya..then at nite it was fun playing badminton with the techies...hehe. The only thing I can remember from it is ramesh telling "hit higher...hit harder...goood goood....hit higher"...ahahhaha..Thanx ramesh for the training!! Oh oh..and of course the superb badminton skills of Peter and Paul....me and aggy were just perhiasan on the court when we played doubles with them.

Saturday........lepaked with my one and only cutey nephew....then had a super lunch with bro and family and not forgetting nina,isha and janice. The waiter kept on serving us...asking us to try this curry..and that curry...haha...it was a satisfying meal. Then came back and tried my best to sleep...planned to go jogging but it was too hot(according to phoebs) but i just finally managed to sleep. Thats why i'm so awake now and semangated to blog. Anyway, i better go to sleep if not might just not wake up for church. So till the next post....ciaoooo....!!!!

Final Year

2008-09-10T16:31:00.005+08:00

Half the semester is already over and there is only 1 1/2 months left before this semester ends. I can't believe how fast time is passing. The first half of the semester was pretty chill just before all the tests and assignments started piling up. The worst part when there was tests practically every other day for the past two weeks. This week is considered the "relax a BIT" week because once next week starts...all the 2nd part of the tests will begin. I guess that's the normal thing which we have been experiencing as student.
I attended my last TECHFLOW camp which was in Penang. The place where the sun was shining brightly until we had to sleep in the tents and the rain started to pour. Our tents almost flew away but i guess coz of the people sleeping in the tent made it more stable...haha. It was a good experience indeed. After camp, things started to set in back again. And the normal routine stuff continued.
The following weekend after camp was also another weekend which was awaited for. It was Joboy's wedding. It was the first time that I was going to be a bridesmaid so I was extremely excited about it. Skipped class on Friday(thanx to kavi).Oh oh..but he actually let me drive his new car. Then summore told me that if i dare can drive at 180...(i think he didn't expect me to do it coz he was sleeping like a baby). Got back to Kuantan early to do some last minute shopping...you know how it is before a wedding...getting last minute stuff like earrings...nail polish...high heels...hehehe...It was fun coz get to shop with mummy dearest. On the day of the wedding, it was a mad rush because had to do my hair and beautify myself before going to church...haha..yea yea. I know syok sendiri but wat to do..sekali-sekala only can be a bridesmaid so much look pretty..:). The wedding was beautiful...the bride looked gorgeous. And the groom looked really happy...I think he was happy that the day has finally arrived. The church was decorated with flowers which matched the theme, maroon and creame. So it all looked pretty...
Then it was back to uni and BACK to reality. Back to all the quizzes and tests and assignments...and yada yada yada....till the next post...ciaoo....

Internship

2008-04-15T20:06:00.002+08:00

7th April 2008- My first day of Industrial training. I was excited to start at the same time I was like...."awww mann" i have to work...which means i can't bum around this holidays....haha.. During morning briefing(by the way i start work at 8am!!) , my supervisor Kak Atie introduced me to all my collegues. I was of course "shy" haha...but they are all super friendly...and they are ALL GUYS!!! I should have expected that rite?Working in a plant...won't be seeing much gals around. There are pros and cons about that.
Anyway my first day passed pretty fast because it was mostly about introducing me to all the people I would have to communicate with to get my reports done. Everyone shocked to see a gal Mechanical Engineer...haha..not something new rite??. haha...But on my 2nd day, I was brought to the production plant...just a brief walk through it..And i just couldn't take my eyes off how they assemble the car...From the minor parts to the major parts....awesooooooommmmeee!!! I never imagined it to be this cool!! so much of detail put into everything. I guess that's the price you pay for a Mercedes. But my excitement for the day didnt end there...my boss then took me to ride in a new C200K!! You can say it was freshly baked from the oven...aahhaha..cun lah.
Its been a week here....and its excitement after excitement....and also some moments where i got nothing to do also...but its fun coz everyone here keeps me entertained. And they are ever so willing to explain everything. I'm just glad to be here. I'm sure there's more to come..i will try to update from time to time....Oh oh yesterday after lunch, my cute German boss asked me whether I'm okay....haha...he said im so quiet...can you believe it???hahhaa...have to maintain lar kan?can't be kecohing here the 1st week itself...:P. The one thing i'm looking forward to this weekend is to come to kl....hehe...and also on friday i'll be following my boss to a seminar which he is conducting...haha..so must look pretty!!!hehehe..ok people...till the next blue moon!! ciao!!

p/s: I still haven't had my shower since i got back from work..ewwww...:P

The Best Gift Ever

2008-01-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

Aren't they pretty???

The Christmas season is over and the major celebration of ushering the New Year 2008 is also over and now we are back to reality....tests...quizzes....assignments....projects....the usual things we have to go through each semester.

Why am i blogging today??Its because yesterday I received the best gift ever..:). I was suprised by Mark and Daniel(my two favourite juniors)...who are still single by the way and not so available..hahaha..They are the two guys who never fail to make me laugh when i am with them. Its a joy having them around especially when I am able to bully one of them constantly(guess who?)...hmmm....why am i promoting them??

Anyway, they got me this pair of high heels which i tried on some time back in one of the shopping malls which I LOVED..Basically,it is not about how much it cost or what the gift was. BUT it is the best gift because it really touched me about how attentive they are about my likes and dislikes. And how they perfectly planned it and suprised me. I was really amazed...and i had no words to say. All I know that I am thankful to have such wonderful people in my life(its not just coz they gave me something k). I don't know what i would do without this kinda people to spice up my life. All in all I am just glad that i met the both of you.Thank you for everything!!! Love you guys!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2007-12-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

Okay...yea i haven't been blogging...haha...been really really really busy. Anyway latest happenings was our awesome Christmas Nite(shock sendiri-ing here!!)...haha.. I think together everyone put a SUPERB show...By God's grace we managed to do all this. All the ups and downs during the preparations, God was indeed there....every step we made, He guided us. Its so amazing!!! Just want to take this opportunity to congratulate the Christmas nite comm...cast and crew and of course the 2ppl who made it possible our beloved musical directors Agnes and Edwin...you guys are the BEST!!! so much fun!!

After that, everyone was excited about getting back home for christmas...skipping all the classes just to get a longer break. Haha!! Some nerds even wanted to come back for monday class and go back again on monday to celebrate christmas. GILER!!! I can't believe that I'm back in uni so early, should be lepaking at home but i'm comforting myself coz i will be goin back for new year.

Christmas Eve was awesome this year...wide spread of food...(suresh u missed it!). I think above all was just the time,we as a family spent. It was so meaningful..something special about it. I think it has been a LONG LONG time since we sat as a family and had a meal. In the midst of the preparation, we managed together and "hang out". I really miss those times...

As for me, I'm back in uni...indeed glad to see phoebs...had lotsa cerita to tell her...haha. I know phoebs weird dream...haha. Anyway hope you all have a BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!

Disguise

2007-10-15T15:37:00.000+08:00

Disguise - Lene Marlin

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies,
I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

People appear to be in your life for a reason. They are either the people who give advice to you, people who are just there to listen to you, people who are there to go crazy with you and of course people who are there simply because they love you. In times of trouble or difficulties you fail to see the people who are sincerely there for you and end up hurting them instead. Its only humane because we are so cought up with our problems that we forget to stop and look at what good is around us. Everything happens for a reason. God puts us in different situations so that we learn from it and be a better person. Its not easy....in fact its never easy BUT one day we will be clear why it happened in this way. I'm still working my way through it. There are many questions but its not gonna be questioned anymore. I'm going to take it and put it some place distant from me...some place where I don't have to go to anymore....some place where I don't have to look back and have regrets on. And when I'm done with it, thats when I return to reality.

Letting Go

2007-05-29T18:22:00.000+08:00

I've been talking to my piggy friend Lydia in New Zealand...and after pondering about it...i think she is gonna make a superb pyschologist!!! Gosh....u really can relate to me(yea i know u alwiz have)..but im just impressed with how you look at things nowaydays.Told you rite gonna steal your ideas....hehehe...So...here's something i got from her.

Is that what you call love? Not letting go after a relationship has ended only narrows down your definition of love as a feeling to own and possess. It is natural to want to be with the person you love because you want to share every part of your life with that person. But do you still want to share if all you can give now is guilt, frustration, burden, and tears of sadness? You do feel hopeless but you are not hopeless. And you know that. So what if the person you love no longer loves you or never loved you? It does change the way you should express your love, but it doesn’t change how you feel towards that person. So why force yourself not to love that person anymore when you know you can’t do it? As a matter of fact, if you can do it, it is not love to begin with. To love is not a decision that can be made. You said that you would only put that person before you and you would only want that person to be happy. But isn’t your crying and yearning reflects the opposite of that? In the end it’s all about you and what you want, and you hurt the person even more. Start to think once again with your brain and not your heart, and to feel once again with your heart and not your brain.
Love should be selfless and not selfish.
To love someone never means only when that person loves you too.
It means giving the person the freedom to love you in return.
It means having that person feeling happy being loved by you.
It means loving yourself.
And letting go means I love you.

So deep rite?? Yea i think its true but its really difficult to put into practice what a person preaches...:)

Meant to be??

2007-05-24T08:17:00.000+08:00

Do you believe that IF things are meant to be, it would automatically fall into place? Sometimes i wonder if there is no God will all of this happen? HE see and hears everything even before we know it. In our everyday life He is there working in small ways which we tend to be ignorant about. Most of the time we take HIM for granted. We only feel that it is HIS will when something good happens to us or if it is according to our plan. What if it happens the other way round? Then would we still accept it as God's will? I believe that we go through trials and temptations because we will learn something from it and hopefully we won't do it again. It only makes us a better and stronger person. Although it is really really hard to say this when we are actually going through the troubles (rite???). Being in university for the past 3years has made me a much much stronger person. Before this i was filled with negativity(all the electrons were in my mind and body..hehe..:P). I used to worry about my future a LOT & to top that up i never thought that anything good would happen to me(pathetic rite??Or more like super -ve!). I used to wonder whether i would get into a reputable university(Well...here i am in UNITEN!), whether i would secure a good job.....whether i would ever find the right guy and get married(*wink wink*)...Haha..you may laugh about the last part but don't deny the fact that you are getting older each year and eventually you would want to settle down with someone you really love and can't live without(awwww...so sweeet)! Im pretty sure somewhere deep down in our not so tiny heart we have that longing or at least we have thought about it(rite phoebs??). It so sounds like i am preaching today...dunno why am i in a preaching mood.Hmmm....but i guess every worry we have. We just have to put it to Him in prayer and be specific(as nina always says!).Because you'll be amazed by being specific and of course by having faith...We will receive. Ask and it shall be given unto you! It may take time....but never deny the power of God!! Patience is a virtue....We may not know why its taking so long for something to happen but He has planned everything according to His perfect timing. AMEN!!

oklah...i got to go....kena pergi class...Will be updating soon...:)

Holidays..

2007-04-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

As i lay in bed..tired from the days work...A thought flickers in my mind....A feeling deep within me...Something familiar....something i know......its.....its.....HUNGER!!! So romantic kan the earlier part???hahhaa...sampai the end the potong the romantic-ness je.Haha...I got that message from a friend(told not to reveal names)...i was like...awwww...so sweet..Well anyway i still think its sweet.That's the sweetest message i've received this holidays.So berbangga ye!!

Gonna be one week already since i've been in kuantan.What have i accomplished???Hmmm....hmmmm....hmmmmmm....have to think really hard. I guess i've watched quite a bit of movies...lazeddddd and lazeddddd at home.Online from the CC almost everyday..while waiting for mummy to finish work.Oh oh...i went jogging at Gelora...For people who know me..thats an accomplishment rite??Rite phoebe??Hahahaa...Erm...lets see besides that i bugged my doggy Hercules.The only thing i can look forward to is Phoebs coming to kuantan...YEAY!!!Thursday...will be counting the days....not for anything but have to start cleaning up my house...aduhh...hahaha..Eh eh no no...jangan marah....saje je..wanna kacau u.Haven't planned anything to do yet.Maybe i should just leave her at McD's Teluk Cempedak in the morning and pick her up at nite..hahaha..kejamnye..dun worry will think of something to do kay.
Okay got to go...must fetch mum from work....Will update soon i hope..with more crap...hahaha..Till the next blog....ciaoo people....

In Loving Memory of Aunty Geetha

2007-03-31T13:44:00.000+08:00

28th March 2007 is the day which my dearest aunty left this world to be in a better place.It is the most sad thing which happened to me this year. I rushed down to Kuantan to attend the funeral and on the way back to uni, all i could think of is the times Ashvini and I spent together..all the fun times...all the outings...all the weirdest things we wud do and get scolding for...all the joy and all the sorrows...I think the most memorable time would have been while being neighbours.For every small thing i would run to their house.Even when i fought with my bro, i ran there to hide and shuhanth put the hockey stick outside so tht my bro wont come! there are many more things which i happened throughout this 16years being in Kuantan. All the tears and joy we endured together. It is something that i would cherish throught the years.
Aunty was like a mother to me, she always treated me like one of her children.I spent quite a lot of time with them. She took care of me when papa went for his operation,she sent me to skool when mummy was busy,she dressed me up for charity dinner,church functions and many many more...Oh one thing i would never forget is she took me to pierce my ears and amazingly i didnt scream or cry when she took me.Because mummy had tried to take me to do it, so many times but failed. Not forgetting aunty's superb cooking, the best dish no one can beat is her mutton.She had a special touch for cooking. In fact her warmth and her love touched many people around her. While writing this particular blog, im trying to recollect everything so that i can pen it down but so many things happened beyond the explanation of words...i guess silence speaks for itself.
Things happen for a reason and sometimes it is so difficult to accept especially when we have to let go of our dear ones...I know aunty is in a better place now watching over us...i'm gonna miss u a lot....I LOVE YOU!!

Wings Of The Angels

A gentle wind blew cross the land

Reaching out to take a hand

For on the winds the angels came

Calling out a mother's name.

Left behind, the children's tears

Loving memories of the years

Of joy and love, a life well spent

And now to God a mother's sent

On angel's wings, a heavenly flight

The journey home, towards the light

To those who weep, a life is gone

But in God's love, 'tis but the dawn.

2007-03-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

My fren sent me this email about what ur birthday month means...or more like the traits of people in that particular month...so i decided to paste mine..read on kalau free sangat..haha.:P

JUNE = LUST
Fun to be with. Loves to try new
things. Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott. Secretive.
Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or
tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has
reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about
people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly.
Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and
unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and
sparkly.
spazzy at times.Not revengeful.
Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary
things.
Guides others physically and mentally.
Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully.
Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong
sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No
difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always
broods
about the past and the old friends.
Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not
aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved.
Easily hurt
but takes long to recover...

So what do u all think??anything true bout me??

Out of Bordem

2007-03-07T21:33:00.000+08:00

shwe ying tagged me...so since i was free...i decided to fill in the blanks...so here goes...

Layer One:On The Outside
Name : Sarah Navita
Birth Date : 2 June 1985(yea yea...old dy)
Current status : single
Eye Colour : dark brown kot
Hair Colour : black with brown highlights
Righty or Lefty : Lefty!! we are special..ahahhaa

Layer Two :On The Inside
Your Heritage : Indian
Your Fears : Not getting thru uni..
Your Weakness : laziness...
Your Perfect Pizza : pizza with loads of cheese and pineapples...and oh ya..chicken..hehe...

Layer Three :Yesterday, Today , Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up : aduh...another day?
Your Bedtime : Depends how tired i am..but usually after 12am..
Your Most Missed Memory : Just hanging out in school with no worries...at all..

Layer Four : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : coke
McDonald's or Burger King : Burger King
Single or Group Dates : well depends...single is cool..but if the guy is boring then group...hahahaha
Adidas or Nike : dun care...not a brand concious person.
Tea or Nestea : Tea more specific TEH AIS!!
Chocolate or Vanilla : Vanilla
Cappucino or Coffee : Coffee...tea or me?hahaha...lame

Layer Five : Do You..
Smoke : Nope.
Curse : I have when ppl like alex paksa me...haha...
Take a shower : duh...im believe in being clean..n smell good..
Have a crush : Nope
Think you've been in love : i guess if u consider being cheated by the guy u trusted...now i wonder whether i was in love..
Go to school : yup..wish i didnt have to..
Want to get married : yea
Believe in yourself : sometimes
Think you're a health freak : NO! But phoebe is!

Layer Six : In The Past Month
Drank alcohol : Nope
Gone to the mall : ya
Been on stage : Nope
Eaten sushi : no...dun like the thought of raw food..
Dyed your hair : nope

Layer Seven : Have You Ever..
Played A Stripping Game : Nope
Changed Who You Were To Fit In : Nope.

Layer Eight : Age You're Hoping
To Be Married : 28

Layer Nine : In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour : Blue
Best Hair Colour : brown
Short Hair or Long Hair : average length but groomed well..

Layer Ten : What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago : lazing on phoebs bed
1 Hour Ago : tried to do M.O.M
4.5 Hours Ago : bath..haha..
1 Month Ago : probably lazy around...hahaha..
1 Year Ago: was in uni being a pig i guess...haha..

Layer Eleven : Finish The Sentence
I Love : God, my family and friends
I Feel : lazy
I Hate : people who are no sincere!
I Hide : my deepest darkest secrets
I Miss : my mummy
I Need : to study

Layer Twelve : Tag Five People
1) Jason
2) Cheow
3) Malathi
4) Nagen
5) Bala

who's my CASANOVA??

2007-03-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

Sarah, your Casanova is the Legendary Lover

Who can resist disarming good looks and gallant charm? Clearly not many — including you! Sweet and romantic, you like a guy who isn't afraid to express himself. And if he likes to pull out all the stops, even better!

Whether he opens doors, reads poetry, or showers you with compliments, your Casanova will enjoy the softer side of the romance dance. You're a lover, not a fighter, after all. And you're also willing to put yourself out there and go for what you want. That's legendary!

tribute to jason

2007-03-04T11:54:00.000+08:00

hahaha...title sounds like he is dead or sumthing. I put that mainly coz he bugged me to update my blog,it seems i havent updated it in ages. I tengah malas,tak tau kenapa. I guess its the lazy week,still getting used to being back in uni after the one week break. Oh and having "semangat-ed" fluids lecturer isn't helping either.Suka hati je tak datang to kelas...and we asked him whether got class on friday and he said YES and the HE DIDN'T COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He didn't even put a notice and the worst part is i saw him at COE makaning!!!why bother paying him rm1215 for the subject...i can teach myself..bazir duit je....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...so pissed...coz he deprived me of my sleep...babi kan..hahaha :p
Then my cousin sister called me and asked me to stay over at her place for the nite...i think i really needed that coz this week alone i got 4 BIG and i mean BIG pimples on my face(no shwe not on my ass). I needed the change of environment and it did me good. Later at nite went to watch the match with alex...oh no no..i mean Agnes..haha...tersilap..susah to tell the difference nowadays..:P. And of course the champions won...haha! It was a game of pulling each others t-shirts and kicking each other most of the time but at the end kita menang.12 points ahead..is that good or wat? Yea sum Liverpool fans will say it was luck and sum arsenal fans say that MU does not have the flair to play unlike arsenal...but with flair or no flair we still top of the table...so BURN!!!...haha..muahahahahhahaha...i sound so evil..haha.
Went to church earlier and terus lari after church coz i didnt want to "smile and wave"...got back and had breakfast and nina ended up eating for the whole week..ahahah..sorry sorry..been kacau-ing u a lot...jangan marah ye...okaylah its time to sleep...nitez people!!

why?

2007-02-22T14:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder why bad things happen to good people?
Why good people go thru a lot of pain and suffering and the bad people continue to have fun and go out with their "perfect" lives?
Why do good people get sick??why??
Why do we have to see them suffer when all this while they haven't done anything that bad???
You may ask who am i to define who is good and who is bad...well im no one to define that but from my point of view, i only see the good people going through a lot.
I guess God is grinding them to be precious gems.
I may never understand why all this things happen but i have to remember and acknowledge the fact that God works in ways we cannot explain and we may not know why now but it is always done to His best interest towards us.
God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Can't WAIT!

2007-02-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

Its 2.30am..."my bags are packed and im waiting to go"..haha..macam lagu pulak.i've packed my bags and im waiting...im waiting for the time to pass faster so that i can go homeeeeee....home sweet home...im sitting here and imagining the one week of sleeping,eating home cooked food...lepaking...sleeping..did i mention sleeping??hahaha..okok..i noe im a pig..but i miss sleeping for longggg hours...anyways...im trying my best to bring back as much things so that at the end of the semester i wont have loads of things to angkut.
Past week has been a really malas malas week...only semangated for ramesh class..the rest of the lecturers all malas dy..haha..if they malas then u can imagine the students la rite.Got most of the test one results..pretty satisfactory i guess...can do better la..which means have to study harder..:).Lets see valentines fell on a wednesday this time.Had 2...hmm...shall i call it dates??Oklah..had a superb dinner with a friend,he was my prince charming for the nite...unfortunately JUST for the nite.We had to wait super long for the food...i dunno why..haha..maybe they had to go buy the food from sum other shop and then serve to us...it was cunted thai food.Then balik uni keluar supper with Arvin,Harnesh(the cutie),Devaki,Param,Prem,Prakash,Uthaya and Prabhu...we played pool...had loads of fun..its been a longg long time since i played pool.I had an enjoyable day.Well,Valentines Day is not JUST for lovers but also friends.We begin to truly cherish the times we have together...okayyyy...i think i better go to sleep if not i won't be much company during the journey back to kuantan...Catch u guys after the piggy-ing holidays....c ya!!!

i love you

2007-02-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

Haha..did i get ur attention with the topic??Don't get ur hopes up,NO!! im not in love with anyone...at least thats wat i think lar."I love you"..This phrase is usually used to express ur lovey dovey feelings towards someone u really really cherish...be it a family member, a friend or even that special someone. Where is this blog leading to?i don't know.I guess this words actually mean a lot when u say it to ur special someone and it is not something you say for the sake of saying it.Or saying it at the spurr of the moment and regretting it later...So i guess think wisely before u say it...aih...i dun feel like sambunging this now...hopefully some other time...hope its soon...nitez!

Tiring Day

2007-02-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

I didn't have much sleep last nite....besides the fact that i slept of while studying dynamics...haha...i think my guilt feeling kept on waking me up and i ended up studying till 6am!!!yeah wow..haha..so much for last minute studying.Anyway it was a cold cold morning,didnt feel like getting out of bed buttttt i had to coz had lab...arghhhh....anyways lab instructor is sweet..haha..gave me full marks for log book...:)(*wink wink*)...bangga :P.Had test...it was errr....dunno...ask phoebs....haha...i refuse to comment on the test.
After that,sat in techflow room craking our heads to finish d MOM assignment,phoebs is the man...after much calculating..she got the answer...(*mexican wave for phoebs*)...ahhahaha...Then had Dr.Ramesh class, he was speeding like a bullet train...i dunno why also.And when he said "ok class,i'll stop here"..everyone started packing and just didnt listen to wat he had to say...kesian him.Then came back to the apartment and tidur like a piggy...haha...Lucky phoebs woke me up coz i had to go cheer lead for my team "Sao Paolo"...:P...missed the first goal they scored :(.They beat their opponents by 3-1,it was a good match!Congrats to co-capt Mr.Gary..hehe..and not forgetting the number 87 dude who scored the moment he substituted another dude...cekap cekap..hehe...
Lepas tu, we took a walk back to murni in the RAIN! got wet nicely...hope i don't fall sick..anyways i think im gonna sleep early....nice weather...nitez people!!

What A Friend We Have In Jesus

2007-02-03T12:34:00.000+08:00

I just attended a funeral today...I guess its been a long time since I did.During this time people would try to recollect memories with the person who passed on.And try their best to remember those times.We say good things and appreciate the live of the loved one.We will mourn for their passing and they would be rejoicing with the Lord.Death does not see age or gender,when our time is up...its up...So,cherish every moment we have with the ones dearest to us.
At the service,they sang this song..and I realized how meaningful the words are...its a nice song.

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry,
Everything to God in prayer,
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry,
Everything to God in prayer

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble any where?
We should never be discouraged,
Take it To the Lord in prayer,
Can we find a friend so faithful,
Who will all our sorrows share,
Jesus knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden?
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour still our refuge,
Take it to the Lord in prayer,
Do thy friends despise,forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He'll take and sheild thee,
Thou wilt find a solace there.

....hmmm.....

2007-02-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

I just went through phoebs blog yest and i realized i havent checked or updated mine in ages...It has been 3months...haha...too busy with "stuff" i guess...
Anyway this pass few days i have been wondering,why people bother getting into arguments...why people bother being in a group...why even bother about the next person??Haha..tht sounds so un-christian huh?But then again,who am i to judge another person...Im not God and i'm no better than the person next to me.Life is to short to be worried about this minor things.I guess sometimes we dwell so much in ourselves that we fail to see that there's a bigger world out there.We get so comfortable in being with a particular group of people than when things go wrong,we are lost.Why?Why do we let ourselves get into this sorta situations?Questions which different people would have different answers to.
Like now..why am i crapping like this also i don't know..haha.I guess the bottom line is, when things are not going rite..and we are upset and burdened with worries we only have God to fall on to.Only He knows whats best for us.Only He can comfort us and make us feel better.
I was going through my collection of quotes and I thought this is really really true....so here goes.."Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Others stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never ever the same."....
Okaylah..got to do some studying two more tests to go before the chinese new year break..hopefully i'll update my blog soon...hehe..ciao!!